it has been a long time since i was puzzled why i act different and silent when O is around. at first i thought thats because of what O’s ex and i have done before. it was a big secret between his ex and i. we’re kinda good friends and i helped O’s ex in something after their big breakup. i’ve been always been mystified why O’s ex fell in love with him despite how jerky O is. i know a lot of bad things about O. but despite this, he’s still popular. so one time. there were actually times that we hang out (we have common friends plus we’re colleagues) or incidentally ride home with the same jeep or bus. O is a clown to the group but im always puzzled why he seldom make a joke about me. im not assuming cause O always tease everybody except me, as i observed. i know we can feel it cause he has that distance with me whenever were hanging out and so was i. i’m always mystified why we always look shy to each other. and so one time, a colleague teased me that i had a crush on him. it was the first time that i’ve heard that idea cause it never crossed my mind. cause for the longest time, i know i’m mystified with whats really going inside his brain. no more no less. thats what i have been thinking. until that idea came. does his humor, talent in music and his hairstyle really interested me? well, haha. i actually dont know now. i never imagined liking him. duh! so its just pure mystification, okey? and im just bored thats why i wrote this. just to brain storm with myself. and i just want to put the music i’ve been listening as i was writing this. ok. ok, i actually didn’t expect this. but maybe, i have a little tiny bit crush on him. my goodness dude, are you in highschool?! so lets keep it a secret ok? its past tense. and it really surprised me that the reason for everything was that. but no! i just couldn’t let this going. im just mystified. and if it was even a little crush, its before. not now. i was just shocked with the idea. my heart is somewhere not here ya know. ok. ok. i dont know how to end this. hahaha. so, ba bye!